Zach ... or is it Zack??

OK, i'm currently texting Zak, thats what i call him, Zak.... -.- and he seems more worried about me then any of my other friends. it feels strange. i told him what i did a while back, and he actually seemed scared for me, no one is ever scared for me, just what is gonna happen to them if i get depressed. i dont know what this feeling is. its happy, yet scared... i feel like i wanna cry, but im too happy. ive never felt like this before! not even when i told jade, she just got mad at me. kaley seemed to prep to understand what i meant... brittany just got more depressed when i told her... zak is scared for me though! i already felt guilty about it, but he made me feel angry at myself, which is what i wanted someone to do for me! i didn't know that but thats it! lol, i dont know what it means, this feeling.......not love, not a crush, happy, yet sad, guilty, angry, but its like im in a whole new light........ i donno