Zach ... or is it Zack??

OK, i'm currently texting Zak, thats what i call him, Zak.... -.- and he seems more worried about me then any of my other friends. it feels strange. i told him what i did a while back, and he actually seemed scared for me, no one is ever scared for me, just what is gonna happen to them if i get depressed. i dont know what this feeling is. its happy, yet scared... i feel like i wanna cry, but im too happy. ive never felt like this before! not even when i told jade, she just got mad at me. kaley seemed to prep to understand what i meant... brittany just got more depressed when i told her... zak is scared for me though! i already felt guilty about it, but he made me feel angry at myself, which is what i wanted someone to do for me! i didn't know that but thats it! lol, i dont know what it means, this feeling.......not love, not a crush, happy, yet sad, guilty, angry, but its like im in a whole new light........ i donno

Why do I need a Title?

Yea why do I need one?!?!

now for what i came to say. I can no longer type lots of stuff on here cuz my mom found it and if she finds half the stuff I wanna type on here, it'll lead to strange conversations, groundings, yadda yadda...

Tonight, my Jade is sleeping over. Ttys.

dvn

cti!

Okay, there's this really good band out there called CTI. It's basicly a Christain band, and every few years there are diffrent members. This year they came to my church. They ROCK!! they have beautiful voices, and the lead singer is kinda cute! lol, I got one of there shirts, it says "be heard." just like that (except, you know, the quotation marks)! Check 'em out!

Jade

Jade thinks no one cares (she's my bffeae(best friend for ever and ever)if you don't know that). and she keeps writing poems about suicide and cutting, and other really really depressing stuff. i don't get it. she knows she can trust me with any thing. yet she bottles it all up until she can't handle it. she said she's already tried to commit. i don't know why she would do this. everyone loves her! yet she says everyone wants her dead or doesn't care. tomorrow i'm going to request to go see ms. scherrel( i don't know how to spell that ladies name!!). i don't want Jade to go away. yet i can't talk to her about this. and i can't talk to friends. but i'm going to have issues talking to the councilors 'cuz they don't want me in their. if your reading this please give advise. thank you

-dvn

BOYS!!!

ugh, I can't stand most boys, they're dumb, they don't have a sense of humor-which isn't always bad-, and they make you feel bad about yourself,
there's this one guy, i liked him, and i think he still likes me, but he won't ask me out, and i don't get it, , but to day in English class(ILA) every time i had to borrow a marker,, he's all like *give me a complement first* and I'm like *NO* then he's like, *then no markers!* then I'm like, *fine,*since i really really needed the markers *nice-* and before i can say any more, he is blushing as red as his ears and just hands me the markers!!! i don't get it!! if someone can explain this to me please do!!! ,,,, I wish i had a boyfriend like Fang, he's so mysterious, and strong, and unafraid, so emotionless, it would make me feel safe if i just KNEW a boy like that.. oh how i wish...:'(

good ridance (time of your life) green day

Another turning point a fork stuck in the road

Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go

So make the best of this test and don't ask why

It's not a question but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictableBut in the end is right

I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind

Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial

For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictableBut in the end is right

I hope you had the time of your lifeIt's something unpredictable

But in the end is rightI hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable

But in the end is right

I hope you had the time of your life

How do they find them....

Okay, how do the erasers keep finding the Flock in the Max. Ride series, well here are some of my thoughts:

1. Either Gazzy or Iggy are being tracked here's why:

• Iggy and Gazzy were alone in the woods when they were found.
• Fang, Iggy and Gazzy were alone when they were tracked by the erasers.

1. One of the Flock is a traitor. (possibly Angel, Gazzy, or Iggy)
2. The chip in Max's arm.
3. Max's Voice (a.k.a. her FATHER Jeb (I say he's lying to her again, like when the director said she's her mom, yea bleeping right))
4. They can't keep hidden so they're easy to find.
5. The computer they stole from Itex is making it easier to find them because it can be tracked.

That's all I have, if you're going to Fang's blog, can you send him a note with all this info, cuz I have to leave so I can't. Thank you.

yea.....

ok, I'm not sure who all reads this, but here's how my day went:

1. I woke up late,
2. Had to wear a stupid hat all day,
3. A kinda' cute guy named Jordan was playing with my hat, (happens 3 times-ugh)
4. Some creep named Hunter tried flirting with me,
5. Hoped I wasn't going to get called down to the guidance office because my bf Jade and Brittany and Sammy have been sui'y,
6. The guy who sits in front of me in ILA named Robby was playing with my hat
7. I finally give him the hat,
8. I passed notes in ILA
9. Yelled at Robby to stop flirting with everyone(he doesn't really flirt)
10. Found out I really really like Robby,
11. Heard my Bf Jade got called down to the guidance office,
12. Read a note that Sammy is once again sui'y, for a reason that isn't true,
13. Found out we have no cat food to feed my kittens with,
14. Started blogging all of this.

I won't treat this as my diary and tell you every little detail, but if you want to know more, lemme know.

NO NO NO THIS CAN'T BE TRUE!!!

THIS IS RIGHT THIS CAN'T BE TRUE THIS CAN'T BE THE REAL LAST BOOK COVER FOR MAXIMUM RIDE SERIES!!!!:


I HATE THIS ONE, TH ER'S A BETTER ONE, WAY WAY WAY BETTER!!! any ways, I think that's Max going over the ocean, I wonder if she and Fang have hooked up yet.....TTT_TTT

Sad....

O.K., I'm sad now, because a lot of things in my life seem to go wrong, and now it's all like, bleah, so now ,, sad,,, if you want to read a few of my poems, then just leave a note saying so,, can we add friends on this place??

ok....

I'm not vary good at this but oh well. My name is De. I will not give out my name to any except people I already know , well I will type here on and off. I LOVE-LOVE-LOVE Fang's blog. You can find it at maximumride.blogspot.com it's really really cool!!!!!

- Dev_n